so yeaha

i have many things i could say with this post. some of which could be humbling or awe-inspiring or due to the fact i had to spell check the last two words it could simply be just one more person ranting. and so due to the fact i know no one will actually read this i can confidently say that this is just going to be the rantings of a young and completely unique ( and i use that word with everything it implies).
 ao i guess i'll just start
so one of the things people tell me is that when you grow up and experience things you'll understand and become wiser. but heres the thing in the last 3 years i've experienced love, break ups, cheating, suicide, shootings, self-harm, madness, medication, dance, and GCSEs. and i can honestly say that the only thing that i know more about or understand is my GCSEs (which are totally getting easier, im not just saying that, they REALLY are!). but as much as most people would say "o i wish i could go back" i dont because then i wouldnt 'understand', but at the same time the only change in me isnt wisdom or empathy its the 'understanding' that the world sucks. and before i would of done something i mean i would of really made a difference.  but now, i see what i can do, i see the great effect it would have, and i do NOTHING.
because thats what growing up is isnt it?! its being ok with things being crap because it doesnt effect you, and then when it does effect you feeling so bad about it that you forget that worse things are happening and so all you do is blame other people for not comeing to the rescue. when lets face it, your the one who grew up.
someone once said growing up is haveing a dream and leaving it because its impractical.
well screw practicality! i have a dream and i aint afraid to use it!!!!


over and out

gerks

xoxo

guess who dropped by :)

so heres the thing. i did crawl back. and so did they. and i dont care.
even if this goes completely wrong this time i know where i stand. i wont get confused. i wont let them have my heart.

not just yet :P

gerks

xoxo